When nothing can take away the pain

Sometimes
Nothing can take away your pain

No positive psychology TED Talks
No guided meditations on Headspace
No mountains of advice, suggestions, I have been there before from people you love
No Xanax, alcohol, burgers
No social media scrolling

It feels that you are stuck till the rest of your days
And the rest of your days seem infinite

you smell the flowers for show
The show that you are in the present moment
But deep down inside you envy the flower for its short life

You cannot control the pathways in your brain
As if your brain detached from your body, and turned into a dictator

But most people won’t get that

They will say you are not trying hard enough
You are causing your own misery
Your negative thinking will bring you negative things
Just change your thoughts and all will be jelly
A bunch of rubbish that causes you suffering above the pain